Why do I feel that my anti-social behaviour is overtaking my life?
I dread talking and socializing.
I hesitate in replying messages which I did only because I feel enormous guilt if I don't reply at all. But maybe to some, it just slipped off my mind because I hesitated too long to do so.
I ignore people's attention.

I do realize that I'm not the only living soul with issues and worries in life, but why do I choose to desert my life away from everyone else?

But how can I be happy when those I care about aren't?
But isn't it cruel to punish my ownself?
Isn't it cruel to be compulsive and emotional?
How am I supposed to live and behave?
It's not about portraying to be a good person; everyone is born pure.
It's just that I am confused with my own conscience.

Maybe I should be more grateful.
Maybe I should learn to listen and be more hardworking.
Maybe I should learn to love more.
Maybe I should learn to be less self-absorbed.
Maybe I should appreciate the beauty of tawakkal.

Maybe I should TRY to do what I think I should do.

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	5	فَإِنَّ مَعَ الْعُسْرِ يُسْرًا
	6	إِنَّ مَعَ الْعُسْرِ يُسْرًا
	7	فَإِذَا فَرَغْتَ فَانْصَبْ
	8	وَإِلَىٰ رَبِّكَ فَارْغَبْ

5. So, verily, with every difficulty, there is relief
6. Verily, with every difficulty there is relief.
7. Therefore, when thou art free (from thine immediate task), still labour hard,
8. And to thy Lord turn (all) thy attention