on being emotional.

i've typed a long post just now, but i dont have the courage to publish it. so i've hit and ctrl+A & DEL.
maybe next time.

things i've learned about myself today:
a) i listen to my heart too much
b) i like to do things my way.. which is not good all the time, but there's some good in it i think
c) my judgment centre has not been working efficiently nowadays, always have the wrong judgments.. be it on ppl or tasks and even own self's capacity and will.
d) i think i've overextended my triceps during gym yesterday, it aches like hell now. huhu


** but just some mental notes to self: please snap yourself out of emotion everytime you feel you are being in a low vulnerable point for too long because you'll just be drifted far away if you keep on letting you sadness rules you. being vulnerable is human nature, but letting it rules you is harmful to your ownself. not only that it'll overshadow your capabilities, but it'll even drugged you into thinking you are not worth it.